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Sunday, June 24, 2007

so much for resting.


yes, so much for my plans of resting and "not caring for one bit" this weekend. I had so much things going through my head and I swear, my brain gave up just a few hours ago.

You see we had a subject called ORIENT2 where we discuss about careers and stuff. Yes for those of you who don't know, I only have a year left before I graduate and yes I haven't been keen about thinking about the future. WELL, Orient2 just made me re-think what I really want to pursue. I know I am really really not a systems analyst.

So right now I'm torn.. between advertising/multimedia and (insert something here). Yeah... I know right advertising. Hmmm, I hope that'll get me somewhere. Now I'm just scared because what if I wasn't born to be an analyst or be a member of an advertising team, where in God's name where i'll be placed? Yes the future is scaring the hell out of me. Having an uncertain future scares me and I cannot take it anymore, I must take action!

I know asking for help is silly because only I can only pilot my future but I am certain that I need help right now.

IF that didn't make things worse, try people telling you to "take care of my parents" because they're lonely. UHM HELLO, what do you think I'm doing? I hate people telling me stuffs like that, I mean I AM NOT STUPID, I am trying my best here to make them happy but can't they understand that I, TOO, AM LONELY? I am as lonely as my parents are but nobody knows. Nobody even cares, nobody's telling my parents or my siblings to "take care of me". I know it seems so childish of me to react like that but seriously it just makes me angry and sad! STOP TELLING ME TO TAKE CARE OF MY PARENTS. STAY AWAY. I AM NOT STUPID NOR DO I NOT CARE AT ALL!

Then after that, all the tears started falling from my eyes, I just couldn't help it. Right now I feel alone. I don't even know if they notice it. It's either I am a great pretender (which I doubt) or they just don't care. Well nobody cares (maybe my family does but I mean that's a given fact of life but the rest doesn't).

Nobody seems to understand my condition. Ahh well I just hope that I'll get by this.

Sorry for my outburst.

Jamming to: Time- Depapepe (lol, COCO!)
Today's mood: Sad && Angry. O.o





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