<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/5568095?origin\x3dhttp://kimmyfish.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

deep deep down in my heart..

at hindi ko kinakanta yung J-O-Y, Joy in my heart. Cold and empty nga yung puso't kaluluwa ko eh.

Kahapon ko lang talaga naranasan ang deep deep depression. I've never sank THAT low in my whole life! Grabe, parang unti-unti akong nagiging abo....di nga abo eh, ERE pare. ERE=AIR. Oo, parang di ko na talaga alam yung nangyayari sa mundo kasi wala namang nagsasabi sa akin at wala namang paki-alam yung mga tao sa akin eh.

Bakit ganun, meron ka namang puso't kaluluwa para makinig sa kanila ngunit di ka naman nila pinagkkwentuhan. Hindi ba't ang isang kaibigan ay nandyan para makinig sa iyong mga kwento kahit pa nakokornihan ka o di mo talaga gusto yung kinukwento? Ano tuloy ako sa kanila?

Hay ewan. Ewan. Ewan. Ewan.

So yun, ang rami pang umiikot sa ulo ko, hindi na ako nakaisip ng script para sa Filipino presentation namin. Pero okay lang, naisip kong kelangan ko munang isort out yung mga iniisip ko. Tipong "kelangan ko ba talaga bigyang-pansin ito?" mga ganun ba, kasi naman yung iba ang babaw, pinapalaki ko lang sa pamamagitan ng pag-iisip pa nito. Siyempre tuloy-tuloy parin yung mga kasamaan ng mundo sa akin...

Pagdating ko rito, pagod na pagod ako sa swimming. Paano nagsynchro kami instead na maglapping. Siyempre di naman sa nagmamayabang ako pero mas nadadalian ako sa lapping. La naman kasi kaming experience sa synchro...oh well, okay naman yung grade pero sayang...

Tas siyempre gsto ko talaga makausap si orange sa problema ko, pero nag-aaral siya. Pero ayus naman kasi nasabi ko kay pat lahat nung nararamdaman ko. Actually sa kanya ko narealize kung bakit talaga ako nalulungkot. Salamat patty. Salamat sa 'yong oras. Sorry at naabala kita, dapat nag-aaaral ka para sa math midterms mo nung mga oras na yun.

Dapat ipprint ko lang yung Filipino riserts namin but no, nagpprint yung tatay ko. So ako yung nagprint...but no, the fcuking powerpoint wouldn't cooperate with me. Talagang galit yung mundo sa akin kahapon pramis....and to add to that shitness, yung tatay ko pa nagagalit kasi nagsasayang ako ng papel. EH BAKIT? DI KO NAMAN KASALANANG MAGLOKO YUNG PRINTER EH. Oo, nung mga segundo na yun, yung self-esteem ko nagcollapse na. Kaya nung umalis na yung tatay ko sa likod, iniwan ko yung computer [buti nalang nag-appear si kuya dude] at pumasok na sa kwarto ko. Umiyak nalang ako. Di ko na alam gagawin ko eh. Hindi lang yung simpleng iyak ah..as in hagulgol na iyak. I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP....kaya pagkagising ko namamaga yung mga mata ko tas sakit ng ulo ko.

Well, crying made me feel better kaya ngayon, tinatahi ko na yung self-esteem ko. Yung emptiness medyo nagfi-fill up na. Pero nalulungkot parin ako....at least di na deep deep deep depression dba?

Sige yun lang. mag-aaral na ako sa intrict. meh quiz raw kahit lam kong di na pwedeng magbigay ng quiz...pero, what the hell, it wouldn't hurt to study dba? at least lumawak pa yung kaalaman ko!

[edit 17:13]
raming gagawin dis week:
-tapusin ang Filipino paper/site
-tapusin ang Filipino presentation
-synchro swimming bukas
-pagsusulit sa math sa huwebes ba yun o biyernes? wala ng quiz!! hahah bawal na nga kasi magbigay eh.
-pagsusulit sa intrict sa huwebes
-simulan ang Java project
-mag-aral para sa Finals

3 more to go. shit la nang tulugan on friday. mag-aaral lang ako dis weekend.. at least before mag TURKISH GP. hahaha. :p Alam kong mali pero priority ang F1 eh. Pakielam mo ba?!

Jamming to: Taste of Ink ng The Used. Gusto ko ng "The Used" na shirt. hahaha.
Today's mood: nerdy. hahahaha feel ko mag-aral at feel ko rin matulog. Paano na?!





Kimi scribbled down her thoughts @ 4:33 PM


0 danced like there's no tomorrow|| leave a beat or two?



Something's Fishy

+Inevitable Ecstasy- it's like wiping your ass with silk.
+Admit it, at one point we WILL reach that ecstasy.

+Carmi.Dlsu-manila.BS-ICTM.
+I'm your winged fishbone, constantly swimming under the seas to enjoy the wonders given to us and hopefully, to seek the truth.

+Public Blog. Don't flood my tagboard.

+Enjoy and feel free to leave if you're offended in any way.


We will definitely see each other again but for now, WE MISS YOU!!!



Twitterific

,
,,


Dare to dream

+graduate High School
+survive college
+to be in the Dean's List
+to be in the First Honor's Dean's List on my last term @ Lasalle - di natupad :( boo
+to graduate with Honors- di rin natupad boo!
+be a graduate of BS-ICTM
+graduate at DLSU on time
+be active in orgs- di parin to natupad boo
+land a decent-paying job in the Philippines and be happy with it
+find a high-paying job in Singapore [or anywhere outside the country] and be happy with it
+a nice laptop with wireless connection
+Confessions of Georgia Nicolson
+Further Confessions of Georgia Nicolson- book5 and 6 also included
+The Roald Dahl Collection
+The Arcade Version of Dance Dance Revolution [the metal one! yeah that!]
+The Arcade Version of Dance Maniax
+Asian/Euro Cruise
+Meet Kimi and Jenson
+Learn how to Tap Dance
+money money money
+Singapore trip (again)
+Beach time with le bushy girls
+Beach time with le college friends
+Original James Bond DVD collection
+The Rasmus CD
+New ipod (iPod Touch please ktnx)
+An F1 ticket [weekend]
aaand my list goes ooooon...


Tag, I'm it



The Nostalgic Sea

July 2003
August 2003
September 2003
October 2003
November 2003
December 2003
January 2004
February 2004
March 2004
April 2004
July 2004
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
May 2008
June 2008
October 2008
December 2008


Under the Sea

My Livejournal account, Inevitable Ecstasy
My deviantart account, Chocolatefishbones
My multiply account, Oatmealraisin Cookie
My tumblr account, Sucks to be me
Nicki, my cousin's LJ account
Carlo, my boyfriend's multiply account
Jackie, my UP-based GF's multiply account
Kat, my Miriam-based GF's multiply account
Coco, my UST-based fellow bushygirl who loves Star Wars as much as I do
Kaydee, my UST-based fellow bushygirl's multiply
Karissa, my friend who is exiled stuck in Singapore
Patty, my Ateneo-based grade1 POG mate and now fancies them korean bois :)
A.M, my LaSalle-based fellow S15 blockmate who, i assume, likes mornings
Ate Mattel, my Mapua-based friend who I met through blogger

Want here? Drop by my tagboard. Seriously I'm gonna add you :)


Layout

Sixteenth Version. I found this cute picture of the 3 evils and decided to make it like..a deck of cards...ish. Well I don't know if THAT is seen but that's my concept anyway.

I have no idea where I got that rainbow, i was just doing some half-circle around the card and then the next thing I knew..THERE IT IS! I guess it somehow made it colorful. HAHAHA IDK IDK. What do you think? I kinda like it :)

Blog Directory - Blogged


Kudos

[[Blogger]]
[[Adobe Photoshop]]
[[Getty Images]]
[[DaFont]]
[[Photobucket]]